Salam all.
Guess where am I right now? Balik dari open house raya kah? Big fat hope. I am stranded at room 515 DEMC.. with severe eczema flare out.
Well.. eczema aku seemed getting out of control since pregnant kan Ein. Maybe because of hormonal changes in pregnancy.. so aku pon xdela nk gi jumpa doktor since aku tau sangat klau jumpa doktor means giving up my effort on rejecting steroid for eczema. Lagipon tak semua steroid is safe for pregnancy n nursing.
So aku continue my daily regime of non steroidal medicine. Moogoo.. Healin Gamat.. those are always at home. So just try n error which can suits me. Moogo seems to fit me better than Derma-x from Healin Gamat. Maybe sbb Derma-x ni paste n a bit oily.. so it tends to irritate my skin even more. So I keep on applying moogoo. On off.. on off for months. Months ok... not days or even weeks. Aku rasa dh mcm disfunction as a mother. Aku cuti memasak for months.. sebab? Flare ups tu dekat both mg palms. Washing dishes pon aku xleh nk buat without gloves. And the worst part is aku alergik pada latex glove. Especially powdered one. Buat keje dapur dgn plastic glove is almost like impossible. Basuh pinggan pon bilas sabun xbersih ok.
Eczema aku keep on off sampaila aku selamat deliver Ein. Ingat lagi masa dlm labour room.. nurse nk cucuk vein tanye kenapa dgn tangan. Huhu.. how to handle a baby dlm keadaan camni? Tapi mujurla aku punye suami terbaik. Alhamdulillah.. dialah yang handle dari baby.. umi.. kakak.. abg.. and also rumah! Thank you so much Abang..
eh.. lamanye nak sampai ke cerita hari ni ek? Hehe.. tu la akibatnye lama sangat tak blogging. Ok.. seminggu sebelum raya.. biasala.. startla mengemas itu ini.. tukar langsir basuh mcm2. Nk buat awal2.. risau gak takut gatal2. Walhal dlm tempoh sebulan puasa tu tangan aku dh kira ok sangat2. Aku bole MEMASAK for buka puasa EVERYDAY ok. Happy sangat masa tu. Skali.. lepas kemas2 rumah sket.. mula gatal2.. mula2 sket je.. garu.. garu.. garu... then.. sehari sebelum raya balik kg rumah pusaka. Memang takde orang jaga rumah tu. So can you imagine tahap hygiene nye? Dengan cuaca yg panas.. berpeluh2.. worsen my condition. Tangan dah start merenyam. So hard to resist myself from scratching. Resulting.. swollen both hands up to elbows. How is my hari raya? Worst in my life. Beraya untuk anak2 aje. Nak bergambar pon tak semangat. Apa lagi nk bersalam2an dgn tangan macam bola. Gagahkan diri pegi beraya rumah2 wajib. Then by afternoon dh xtahan.. balik rumah n rest.
Malam tu.. dh mula rasa berdenyut2 area yg bengkak. Xleh jadi. Kene shorten my eid break. So esok pagi.. raya ke 2.. siap2 baliklah aku sekeluarga ke shah alam. Perjalanan balik tu aku rasa xtahan sangat. Dgn berdenyut2 nye.. rasa nk demam.. mcm2la. Sampai shah alam dlm kol 9mlm. Terus gi A&E DEMC .. dapat 2 injection. Solu-cortef dgn chlorpromazine. Dibekalkan hydrocortisone cam biasa n augmentin for antibiotics. Balik tu okla.. bole tido. Kurang berdenyut. But esoknye bangun pagi dh jadi robot. Tangan keras. Rendam dalam pottasium permanganate. Then scrub off dead skin. Apply moisturiser n hidrocort. Mkn ubat. Tapi tgk bengkak m merah xde improvement. Kt lengan makin teruk. Apa nk buat. Khamis tu... serah diri di DEMC.. warded.
tangan dh bengkak mcm bola. Ko ingat senang nk set line? Nk cari vein mcm cari harta karun. Set line.. darah mencurah2 habis basah katil. Ye la.. pressure darah tu mmg high la dh n bengkak kan. Nasibla..
Apa rawatan yg diberikan? Patutnye aku kene berendam dgn pottasium permanganate solution dlm bath tub.. tapi disebabkan bendera jepun naik.. so.. dorang kna tukar method. Bungkus affected area dgn gauze soaked in pottasium permanganate for 20 mins camtu. Pastu apply Aqueous cream generously. Then hydrocortisone sket2. Pastu fucicort utk area2 yg masih merah2. 2 times a day. Orally zirtec every 6hrs kot. Then antibiotics n hidrocort through iv line. Hmm.. penuh badan aku dgn steroid. Pasrah. Sedih.. tapi I have to. Aku xbole selfish. A malfunction mother is the last thing yang aku akan consider. Imagine watching your baby crying for your hold.. and you can't even bend your arm to hold her up.
Ya Allah.. sembuhkanlah penyakitku agar aku dapat menjalankan tanggungjawab yang telah Kau amanahkan kepadaku dengan sempurna. AMIN
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